Hello,
I’m writing a thing. It is an act of sharing, of communicating. I feel I have lots to communicate, though the value and usefulness of that communication is still up for debate. I think the biggest determining factor is going to be the purpose behind what I choose to communicate. Purpose is a funny thing, because people tend to complicate and convolute their intent for various reasons, and I am not at all unique in this. But, I’m hoping, to start off the whole issue of purpose, that the simple act of writing will help establish that purpose automatically, though likely in indirect and subtle ways. If I basically just publish various self-reflecting journal-like entries it should be a fair conclusion that my purpose is more or less self understanding. Why I’m choosing to make it public is a more nuanced thing, however.
I’m writing as a blend of good ol’ narcissism with some kind of psychological hacking of motivation via public reinforcement. I’m sure there’s a term for what I mean there, but I imagine anybody reading this gets the gist of what I mean. Essentially I need some kind of source of motivation, and I’m hoping that might come from the knowledge of having an audience. Who do I want for an audience and why do I think they ought to give a damn to take the time to check out what I have to say? I don’t know… But that is an important question I should look at and come back to later. So I’m glad I asked it here, and hope that I follow through on.
Anyway, I’ve got lots more to say, but I think I’ll just have to let this be the beginning as I’m pretty tired and definitely in a pretty bad way of sleep debt. Psynautica has been my dream for a long time, though it’s a pretty dang hazy dream. I’m actually pretty confused about what the dream’s about anymore… But I guess, with any luck, this beginning will help develop some clarity and context for that dream. While I’m a huge fan and advocate for the abstract and sublime, right now there’s just so much confusion and chaos that I feel strongly that I owe it to myself and others to try and do something that feels specifically… helpful, which is what I hope Psynautica can eventually do. So here’s to helpfulness! Thanks for trying, Me. And thanks to you, too, whoever you are, as we begin this journey together.
Cheers!